i'm pretty sure i'm getting sick. probably mono since that's what amanda has. as awful as this sounds i would love to go a week without work. i've got vacation hours saved. bring on the shit. for real though, if its not one thing its another.

i need to do something amazing this summer. i need to take a trip. really bad. i need to see some new things.

so, since no one else reads this, i can write about this shit. i'm getting so tired of being alone. i never thought i would be the last one of my friends to find someone. maybe that's what i get. ever since i broke up with sam i've found myself with one shitbag after another. its been two years, and i mean i've never been the type of girl that needs a guy's attention to feel good about herself, but sometimes even I need a snuggle nugget. the best feeling is the giddy one you get about someone you're attracted to, but the worst feeling is when the giddy goes away and it turns into sad desperation. thank god for good family, good friends, good green, and my precious cat.

this all comes from listening to sad bastard music. that's why you should never do it.